if only you knew me

If only you knew all the times I wonder. 

All the times I wander. 

All the times I worry. 

The dark side of the moon huh.

I wonder if I'm like the moon. More importantly are other people like the moon? Do I realize that I can only see half of who people really are? I don't even know half of who I am...

I'm trying to figure out the half of me just like you. So here it goes.

If only you knew me.

I wonder if I'm trapped in this heavy gravitational pull for the rest of my life. One day I'll be free.

I wonder if I'll ever see the dark side of the moon in you or the dark side of the moon in me. 

I wonder about the people I don't know yet. Especially the people that I will love.

I wonder how God's plan really all went down. How this all really works. 

I wonder if I'll ever thank Him for putting a moon here. So thanks. 

I wonder who actually cares about me. Because I care. 

I wonder if I 'm ready. I know I'm not ready. 

If only you knew me . 

I'm just a wanderer. I float high in the air through life without even looking back to enjoy the view.

I wander because I'm scared that I will lose myself in something that will destroy me forever.

I wander aimlessly through my thoughts because I'm too lazy to pick a target to shoot. 

I wander instead of doing what's important. I'd rather watch netflix.

I wander to get some alone time. Just my thoughts and me. 

I wander through my past like it never happened.

I don't mean to wander. But I do.

If only you knew me.

My worries don't come out like I wish they would. They play dead then wait for the right moment.

My worries happen to be buried deep inside me. It's hard for me to see them coming.

 I'm worried. So I keep on burying them deeper and deeper. I'll dig up a few. 

I'm worried because when sirens sound she comes to my mind first.

I'm worried about her.  (calm down it's my mom)

I'm worried about if I've done enough. 

I know I haven't done enough.

If only you knew me.

If only you knew me. I want to know you. I want to know me, but getting to the dark side of the moon has proved to be an impossible task so far.

If you think you know me, then please. Tell me. 

If you figure out who you are or who I am, then please. Take me to the dark side with you.

-LV